pain filled eyes

 

i cannot say one ugly word

as i look at the two

with my pain filled eyes/

            like staring at the sun/

unable to deny

loving the man

who brought me joy

unable to feel

hatred toward the woman

            my sister/i love

looking on

with my pain filled eyes

staring at the sun

the madness of it all

such joy unblemished by my regrets

as i wander along my jealous path

            jealous of joy

            jealous of love

            jealous of happiness shared

as i sit alone in my empty rooms

and consider what i am lacking

staring at the walls

of my shattered dreams

w/my pain filled eyes

staring at the sun

tears streaming down my face

as i go blind

wondering why i continue to write love poems

 

 

1/18/82

© geri lynn peak

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